Usually im not one to be organized, i go with the flow and im quite spontanious from day to day. But when it comes to planning your furture, id like to know whats going to happen. Its scary to think that i dont have a clue what im going to be doing in September. Having applied to two places and after months only hearing back from one, and not the one you wanted to hear back from, things just explode in my mind. Got a portfolio viewing from one place, so i could be moving away next year? or do i stay home and travel? I had it all planned out in my head, but things never happen the way you want them too. So now, im taking one day at a time, making the most of the things i do each day because really you never know when they might go. So many people say that you should say what you think or feel becasue you may never get another chance, but who actually does speak everything they feel and think? Like the John Mayer song 'say' i wish i had the courage to say things i wanted to, i admire people who dont care what people think and say the things that everyone is thinking, or the ones that go out on a limb and say their true feelings just to get knocked down, but is that a bad thing? Getting knocked down is all part of learning? I wouldnt know, i dont get anywhere close enough to get knocked down.
Next month ill be 18. Id quite like to stay this age forever please, no more responsibility, no more bills, no more things to worry about, just the simple life of a 17 year old? but life is never simple.
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