#42

If you could be any animal what would you be and why?

A bear because you could be fat and hairy.

#41 - the simple life

So yesterday i deleted my facebook.

i was thinking about it, and i wasnt going to so that i could keep in touch with those who live far away and things like that. But then i thought, if people wanted to keep in touch with me, then they would either have my number or they would find a way to keep in touch.

so im the girl with no facebook. how many people can say that?

#40

but that feeling can change instantly.

#39 - invisibility

Do you ever wish you could just pack up and move, and start a whole new life where no-one knows you and you could become a whole new person. The past couple of weeks i felt like that, as if i could jsut dissapear and no-one would actually notice.
But today i realised that i have so many people who love me, church family and friends and so many different people who appreciate me for the weird thing i am.

All i have to do is climb a tree, get over the crowd, and take Jesus home.

#38 - the unknown

Usually im not one to be organized, i go with the flow and im quite spontanious from day to day. But when it comes to planning your furture, id like to know whats going to happen. Its scary to think that i dont have a clue what im going to be doing in September. Having applied to two places and after months only hearing back from one, and not the one you wanted to hear back from, things just explode in my mind. Got a portfolio viewing from one place, so i could be moving away next year? or do i stay home and travel? I had it all planned out in my head, but things never happen the way you want them too. So now, im taking one day at a time, making the most of the things i do each day because really you never know when they might go. So many people say that you should say what you think or feel becasue you may never get another chance, but who actually does speak everything they feel and think? Like the John Mayer song 'say' i wish i had the courage to say things i wanted to, i admire people who dont care what people think and say the things that everyone is thinking, or the ones that go out on a limb and say their true feelings just to get knocked down, but is that a bad thing? Getting knocked down is all part of learning? I wouldnt know, i dont get anywhere close enough to get knocked down.
Next month ill be 18. Id quite like to stay this age forever please, no more responsibility, no more bills, no more things to worry about, just the simple life of a 17 year old? but life is never simple.

#37 - fake a smile

how often do we actually tell people how we feel? we all go through out day being polite asking people how they are, but how many of us actually care how they are? or are we simply being polite? we all put on a fake smile and say hello, even on the crap days we are all 'fine'

i dont think ive told anyone how i feel in ages, its always im fine, im okay.

no-one is fine, no-one is okay.

its just who can you talk to? who is actually asking how you are becasue they care and who is asking to be polite?

sometimes people might want to cry, but they cant because they dont know who to turn to, some people might not have friends, some people dont have friends who they can tell absalutely everything to.

one day that girl who is always fine is going to stop smiling, stop being strong, stop being happy, and let the tears fall and just cry becuase she wants to. when someone asks her how she is she is going to break down because she has been fine for too long.

#36

so basically ive had a crap day.

#35 - we all wanna be famous

everybody wants to be on tv



do you want to be famous? what for? for being an actor? finding a medical cure? helping an old lady? being a model? singing?

who wants to be famous? and who just wants to be noticed? who just wants a little bit of recognition for who they are? who just wants to be loved and appreciated? and who actually wants to be famous?

#34 - happy families

This weekend all of the Goodalls are back together for a couple of days.

My sister is coming home tomorrow and my brother is coming home saturday becasue he's preaching at church on sunday.

So all around a good weekend ahead i think.

#33 - we must go

We must go.

We must go, live to feed the hungry, stand beside the broken.

We must go.

#32 - humbility

#31 - Nick Pitera

A whole new world.

Not only can he sing well, he can sing like the opposite sex, he is super talented.

Jealous.

#30 - when all you wanted was to be wanted

2011.

The year 2011.

The year 2011 should be a rather good one.

In the year 2011 i leave worthing college, last year at dalesdown as a camper, i start something new, and my future begins.

In the year 2011 i could either go to northbrook to do a 2 year foundation course in fashion photography.

In the year 2011 i could go to southampton solent to do photography.

In the year 2011 i could start working in an office.

In the year 2011 I become me.

The year 2011.

2011.

#29 - from your father

Love this.

It made me happy.

Im thinking about uni, maybe going away would be good for me? or staying home?

I'll have to wait and see if i get accepted to where i have applied, its all up to God now.

#28 - i am not the kind of girl who should be rudely barging in on a white vale occasion

So many things running through my mind.
But today is the start of a new me, one who does college work, tidies her room, does work around the house, goes to bed before 12, gets up before 10, knows who her true friends are, and doesnt have time for those who arnt.
Im lazy, shy, weird, christian, sensitive, a push over.
Some of these things are staying and some are going.
People who dont appreciate me for who i am dont get to appreciate me at all.
Lately i find that i am making the effort to see friends i adore, but it seems they dont like me as much, im just someone for them to see when their bored, or someone for them to see other friends through.
THE NEW ME STARTS NOW.

#27 - i put my new shoes on

i got some new shoes, i love then :)

#26 - drinking on cheap bottles of wine

saying things we havnt for a while

smiling but we're close to tears

i want to sit up talking all night, saying this i havnt ever said, but the one i want to talk to isnt here, and i dont think wants to talk to me

the script are hot, i love danny o'donoghue

#25 - rocket to the moon

I've found a new love.

I listen to them everyday.

Nick Santino, (age 22, rocket to the moon) will you marry me?

#24 - heartless

how often do you cry?

#23 - dont let the silence get you down

this song is totally me right now

i figured it out, i did, just need to do it now

if their your friends they share your vision